that certain something.

Who am I today. Every day I make the choice. I made every single choice that got me here, change and destiny notwithstanding, so this is what I want. Trouble is, maybe I don’t know that “I” so well. Or maybe I don’t like that “I” so well. Or maybe, this continuing last night’s rant, there’s something big I haven’t learned yet. Namely, how to truly, truly appreciate or more specifically, how to live in where I live, and be centered in that, so that I don’t feel this left-out-ness when reminded of other people’s worlds. I’d like to see them from a greater distance, with greater faith in my choices. I’d also like to reduce my phone bill. Seventy bucks a month, in addition to my cell phone bill, seems like a lot.